Back on my track!

It is really hard to find out what I am thinking and I have in my mind.. especially. I think I did but now, I am confused. I just want them to like but not me. I am very used be like that.

The worst problem is that my English is getting worse and worse the time goes by. I am so sad................... what can I do?? Please help me out. If anyone know, please tell me. I will do whatever I need to become more fluent. I just can not speak smoothly anymore. I can not write either. I should study a lot more than now.

These days, I haven't been study hard at all! That is because of ...... I am very tired of thinking about it. I really should stop caring about it and concentrate to things that has to be done. I am a graduate student. I can't just waste of my time till the end of the year. I shouldn't be with them for a while. I really need to get back on my track! oh my gosh..
Saeun.. Please back on your track!