I am wondering of my life!

First of all, I would want to say that finally I am loving with studying TOEFL!! It is just interesting especially the reading passages. Grammar is still not interesting for me though..sigh.. But isn't this great? I should study TOEFL not writing this but, just for a 10 min! I have another test coming soon. I should really really study for it from now on! :) Hoping that I don't get bored with it.

These days, I am really into working out! It's really healty and it relieve my stress away. I feel really good after I run. I talk to my friends while I am stretching and running. I have a duty to take care of me. Even though, sometimes I feel not going to the gym, I often ignore the feeling of it and run! Then, I definitely feel better after hard work. Keep run! Go for it!

I am thinking that I should figure out what I want to do after I finish my master degree. Going study abroad? Being a teacher? I two options so far.

The thing is that both choices are hard and it might takes time to do it and I do not really have time... I am 25...and I am just wondering of my daily life weather it has been good or bad. Wherever I walk, wherever I been, it seems so same everyday and I need to be busy with things, so that I don't have to think about it. Sigh....I am Just really comfused...

Well, the undisputed thing is that writing my thesis and study for TOEFL are important to me and I should probably just keep doing it. Then, I am pretty sure I will figure out what I really need to do for the future. Live now or Die! If I effort for everything that I have to, I am sure I will get it!

the most important thing for me is...

Thinking about my thesis and TOEFL!!!
I really want to go back to America because my English is getting Japanese-English which makes me very sad. Salad Oil?? omg...Vegetable Oil!! gosh!

I know my topic has to be a lot more narrow so I am working on it. From Thursday, We have school off for 5 days because of the school festival. Here is my plan for the rest of this week.
Thurs: Study!!! and jeff's.
Fri: Study!!! Halloween party.
Sat: Hang out w/ Mai.
Sun: Go somewhere??
Mon: where??

I am not sure what I exactly doing on Sun and Mon. I gotta figure out soon.

Ok, what I want to write about is... I have to concentrate on my paper. I have to find a lot more articles about my paper and READ! My English skill is getting worse so I need to keep study and read slow. I will look up every single words that I don't know to understand fully in the text. I know this is what I need for now.

1. Make a narrow topic.
2. Look up the dic. as much as I can.
3. Read slow! and Understand fully of the article.

I am getting back on my track! Good Luck Saeun!
You do not have time to waste. Enjoy my days! 젊음은 다시오지 안는다. 시간도 다시오지 안는다.

be strict to myself!!

Thesis... It has to be done very academic but honestly, I am not sure what I am doing is right or not. My writing skill is going down and down to the very bottom of the earth. I am so sad. however, I can't just be sad! I gotta get better! I know I can do it!
I 've been hanging out with those guys too much. I don't study at all!
I will study after the class and hang out with them later. I know it is the best way. I better control myself.

thesis...
Girl!!Get ready to study!

Back on my track!

It is really hard to find out what I am thinking and I have in my mind.. especially. I think I did but now, I am confused. I just want them to like but not me. I am very used be like that.

The worst problem is that my English is getting worse and worse the time goes by. I am so sad................... what can I do?? Please help me out. If anyone know, please tell me. I will do whatever I need to become more fluent. I just can not speak smoothly anymore. I can not write either. I should study a lot more than now.

These days, I haven't been study hard at all! That is because of ...... I am very tired of thinking about it. I really should stop caring about it and concentrate to things that has to be done. I am a graduate student. I can't just waste of my time till the end of the year. I shouldn't be with them for a while. I really need to get back on my track! oh my gosh..
Saeun.. Please back on your track!

New things and nice weather!

I am trying to get ready for my survey to ask question to students for my thesis. It is super hard because I know what I want but they don't so I have to be a very careful to inform them the right direnction about my questionnaire. That is the most hard part so far and I also should read a lot!
I am going to take a TOEFL test! I better ready for that. I haven't study so much since my motivation is too low when it come up with TOEFL which is so strange. I really want to study abroad but I don't know why I am not studying for TOEFL. I hate myself when I hate to study for it. Get ready girl!!!! Don't forget your goal for next!

Here are some fun stuff for now.
The school just started a few weeks before and I am having fun with classes and some events are going on. We have new international students as usual and they are more like foreigners not like Japanese. Since rob and sam were here in kumamoto, we only had japaneselike-foreigners but this year is different so it's fun! I feel like I am in US or other places. I can hang out with them on weekdays more than weekends because I have something going on weekends, always. I have my friends who are already work so they only have time on weekends, that is why I hang out with them. I feel bad I don't have a car to take internationals around or I can't take them when I am out with my friends which should be fun.
I love my girls ai and mai and new internationals too.

The weather in kumamoto is sooo beautiful. It is so good to hang out and do some outdoor stuff! Sweet! Lovely!

but I gotta work today...I hope it ends early.

Ready to Go!

I am ready to go for everything. I am in love with English and studying "ESLs FL acquisition". I like to being busy, I always puzzle my time the best way for me. Coz, I usually hate to waste of my time. Being busy is good but I don't really want to do a part time job. However, I decided to have fun at work. (no more complain). People are very nice to me and its not too bad environment. I definitely rather like to study more than work. lol I love to hang out with my friends; Ai, Mai, C, H, etc. I still really really want to go back to US to study more. I loved those days when I was in UWEC in 2005-2006. I had so much great time at that time. Studying a lot, hang out with Fs a lot. Living in a different culture or country is so much fun to me. I ca be a very colorful chameleon since I think I can easily adapted other cultures. I also like to think a stratage while I am studying rather than just studying hard. This help me a lot to have higher motivation. Recently, I went to Italy and Thailand with many friends of mine and I loved it! I guess I should write about the detail of my journey next time.

Saeun*